I did it......

I don't even know if I want to write about this. I feel like I just burst a blood vessel in my brain! I hate myself for sinking so low, but.....I made a change in my master plan. I should be keelhauled, or something.....after I promised myself over and over again....ugh.....

I'm not going to do FCS any more. I just freaking ordered SD Aya from Frank! O__O.....I just whipped out my calculator and figured, hey, if you want a cute realistic SD and you do the FCS thing it's going to cost something like...$900 when it's all over, and here Aya is, she's cute and costs only $680. So....there's my SD of the year. I couldn't have waited--I got the last one! But my god, what the hell am I thinking?? I charged her on my credit card, and I'm just going to have to go nuts paying her off. Well, either than or go nuts saving up the 800+ dollars for the FCS doll....;_;

I was supposed to wait till my birthday! But Aya is limited edition, how could I have waited?! Oooooh oh oh...I am a crazy freak! I am such a fool. But what could I have done? Actually, there are many things I could have done, but what's done is done and I can't take it back.

I like to tell myself that I'm securing this doll's future. I'm preventing her from falling into the hands of someone who would disfigure her and give her hot pink lipstick. ::screams:: What have I done?! Am I nuts? Time to sell some more Suikoden crap!

Am I a compulsive spender?

Sometimes I worry that I am. But if I go to the mall I can hardly ever find anything I like, and even if I do I seldom buy it. They say that one sure sign that you're a compulsive spender is that you buy large quantities of things that have no practical use to you, just because it's only sale. ^___^ I don't think I've ever had that problem! I just happen to have one of the most expensive hobbies out there...collecting these dolls is tough because if you see something you like you usually have to grab it right away, or else you'll never have another chance. That's not a very healthy attitude to live by, unfortunately. ::sighs:: Why does it always have to be such a war?

I guess it could have been worse! I'd just better knock it off for a long time. A VERY long time. At least, SDs can keep you company, right? Ha ha ha.....

Let's Positive Thinking!

So last night, when we weren't sure if Frank still had Aya, Kristen asked me what I'd name her if we could get her. I told her that even though it would be weird, I wanted to name her "Maya." And she said that she was thinking of the same name! So Aya will be Maya...hee hee hee....^o^

Behh...no more regrets. Even though I haven't had her for that long, would you believe that Kristen had ordered Anise in October? .....I read on a Japanese page that Aya's default eye size is actually 20mm, so she and Fuuka could share eyes. That'll be neat ^____^.

Ugh....such uncomfortable weather!